Day 411 - 'one' odd gene

Our first stop...a real lighthouse to go inside!

Are you surprised?  Well you shouldn't be, I've always been abnormal and always will be! LOL

What a wonderful time we had the last 3 days with 5 of our grandkids in Sooke on Vancouver Island.  I'm not sure who was more tired, Gramma and Grandpa or the kiddo's.  But by the 3rd day we all hit the beach and became sand lumps...

Day 407 - 'one' can only look forward

It's been an interesting week.  A little drama, a whole lot of insight and lots of confusing thoughts.  But we're moving forward now.  Focusing on those that truly show they care and realizing that a year later from my original diagnosis I am surrounded by smart, intelligent, BIG no HUGE hearted, loving, beautiful people that push me when I need it and pull me back when I need it to.  Who could ask for me...

Day 405 - 'one' more apology

Ahhh tunnel vision.

Yep, that's the way I will start my day again today.  Perhaps it's not an apology but a revelation this morning when I read over my blog and then sat to write in my journal...

Day 404 - 'one' way of looking at it

Working on the screen printing
stencil for the tshirts

It's been a busy day of running around getting groceries, stuff for our camping trip and listening to the voices inside my head.  I started my day very early and needed to get something said that was bothering me since I went to bed the night before.  I needed to apologize for something I said.  I needed to take responsibility for my actions and be the person that I want to be...

Day 403 - 'one' funny day

I guess I DO live in a make believe world!

yep that's what it's been, one funny day.  A day full of emotions all over the place.  I wanna be a kid again so I can just forget about everything and sit and play with my lego, climb onto the roof of the house or sit and color.  Well I guess I can 2 out of those 3 but I'm not saying which two!

It's funny how life sends you a loop sometimes, you don't know why at the time but with patience I will know.  The things you thought were getting better can remind you that they are not.  The idea that you can send love out but you can't control if you get loved back...

Day 402 - 'one' feels empowered

Who's under that crazy hat?

when getting the help you need.  As you know I had my 17th treatment today.  I'm feeling really good, did a little running around before heading on home.  Four and a half hours seems like a mighty long time when I'm sitting on my butt...

Day 401 - 'one' of me

The wanna-be farmer and crew!

It's been a fun day.  A day that I mostly forgot that chemo is tomorrow am.  I went and had my blood tests done this am but won't know if the blood work is OK enough to have treatment until I arrive at the clinic tomorrow.  I feel pretty good so my guess is that it's a go!  If I felt like I did for a few days last week, I would say that treatment was not in the cards.  Tomorrow I will tell the chemo nurses about the fun I had and we will see if my doctor will adjust anything.  I hope not in the sense that I'm OK now...

Day 399 - 'one' who loves to plan

Yep - this is what REALLY matters!

Yep that's me! I spent the day working through ideas for a camp we are doing for our five oldest grandkids.  The theme is 'Survivor'.  Well of course Gramma and Grandpa will make it fair, and we won't vote any of the kids off the island but we are going to give them a food challenge that includes some chocolate covered ants, goats blood [that is V8 juice] and some other fun stuff...

Day 398 - 'one' nut high in the air

Yep, that's what I was, one nut high in the air.  No, not high on air, well maybe. LOL

Today all the stars were aligned for Ray and I to have what we call an 'adventure day'.  He was not  working, I had some energy, my legs were working, nausea under control, I had no gizmo attached, the sun was shining, it didn't break the bank to do, woohoo and off we go.  We went to the UBC Greenheart Canopy Walkway at the botanical gardens in Vancouver...

Day 396 - 'one' wheely

My twig furniture making phase.

that's what I'm going to learn how to do, one BIG wheely.  Yesterday was a pivotal day for me.  It was a day where I found strength in knowing that I CAN! As you noticed on my blog I've been whining about the lack of energy I've had over the last few days.  I took the problem and flipped it backwards, forwards, upside down and sideways.  Yep over analyzing it is what I did, no surprise there...

Day 395 - 'one' block of ten minutes

that's what you might have.  Let's say just for debate that you were unable to do the one thing that you think is the most important activity you do during the day.  Now I'm not talking about people, I'm talking about an activity.  What is the activity that you would have to do no matter what each day? 

Is it cleaning? A shower? Driving? having your coffee? Now let's say again that you suddenly lost your ability to be mobile and having the strength to do something was almost impossible.  But what you do have is 10 minutes within your day to do what is most important to you.  Yes, 10 minutes only.  You do have enough strength to accomplish an activity for only 10 minutes once a day...

Day 394 - 'one' flip of a switch

to change your life.  Don't we wish it was that easy?  Lets see...I would like to switch my legs into power mode, yep that would be great.  The ability to easily walk up and down the stairs, to run around the yard and to chase my Dudley.  Or perhaps a flip of the switch to give strength to my body, to be able to carry the things I need to and to build the things I dream of.  But alas, life is not one flip of the switch. 

The last couple days have found me with less and less energy.  I watch the world around me continue on while I feel stuck.  Stuck in a little bit of mud, not enough to completely stop me but just enough to slow me down...

Day 392 - 'one' interesting comment can create interesting thoughts

A beautiful sunset at Crescent Beach that my hubby took me to see.

It's been an odd day.  I've been dealing with some new aches and pains in my belly.  But perhaps it's me being paranoid from the comments that my Dr. said at my last appointment, the comment really sticks in my head for some reason.  She said she's surprised that I don't need more pain medication than what I'm taking...

Day 391 - creating 'one' pile or two

Father's Day picnic 2002

I noticed this morning my house is looking a little more cluttered than it has for a couple months or more.  I have piles! Some people find their joy and happiness with a clean house.  I do too but for the last few months my house has been moderately clutter free except for my hubby's corners.  There didn't seem to be the desire in me to work on anything.  But now I seem to be creating my wonderful project piles again...

Day 390 - 'one' less nut

Ever feel like you've smacked into a wall?

yep that's right, but really it's that I can't eat nuts in general.  I stopped eating nuts about 3 months ago because it was giving me digestion pain in my tummy.  Well I thought I would give them a try last night and as you guessed, yep, nuts aint's for me.  Don't you love my english?  Good thing my grandkids don't read this.  Mind you they listen to me talk and realize that their grammer ain't good with her grammer! LOL

Teeny Weeny Marion

Yesterday was a good day..

Day 388 - focusing on 'one' instead of 'fifty'

I started my day as usual but soon found my thoughts getting agitated by stupid things and situations that annoy me.  I decided to sit down and write in my journal to deal with these negative thoughts.  Only two paragraphs in after writing all the things I had going on in my brain my thoughts shifted to thinking about all the people that show they care for me everyday, and I mean lots of people...

Day 387 - 'one' loud scream



The most beautiful purple orchid, just like the
person that gave it to me!



that's what I let out the other night, one loud scream.  I was sleeping soundly on my favorite foamy in the family room when I woke up to this loud buzzzzzzing in my ear.  It was the sound of that wonderful mosquito that has been driving me batty in this house.  I think I gave Ray quite the scare though, I do make weird noises when I sleep, that's another blog, but screaming isn't one of them.

Then I starting thinking about that mosquito that I dared to bite me because I thought my chemo blood would do him in, the nurses at the clinic informed me that was unfortunately not the case.  A mosquito would survive getting a little blood from me.  So what happens when a mosquito decides to take some blood from my body? Well it's gets a whole lotta steroids, no wonder this mosquito looks so fat.  He's laughing at me because with every bite he gets stronger...

Day 385 - one hopes

lounging at Crescent Beach...I hope
the sun stays away for just a little longer

for many things throughout the journey of life.  We send hope in our thoughts to others who are going through trials, we hope that each day will be good, we hope that there are no hungry children today and so much more.  But hope for a person with cancer starts like this...

Day 384 - was this the 'one'

You know, the appointment with my doctor where she tells me they can't find any cancer.  Was this the 'one' where the doctor tells me things don't look good.  Was this the 'one' where the doctor tells me, WOW what have you been doing everything has disappeared...

Day 383 - 'one' failed attempt

to have a picnic on top of a mountain. We thought we would have a fun adventure day and do a picnic on Seymour Mountain, well we thought it was a good idea.  Today was a beautiful clear day so we guessed that the views from the top of the mountain would be amazing...nope, too much smog in the air to see much.  We arrived at the top to have the truck surrounded by crazy dragster bees! Really dragster! They wanted to race the truck, we were side by side with bees on both sides of the truck for at least 50 feet...

Day 382 - 'one' CT scan

Now doesn't that sound exciting? Yep today was CT scan day.  I haven't had a CT in over 3 months so I'm kinda eager to find out if anything is happening...did you hear KINDA? 

It was very quiet in the hospital today and we got quickly onto the treadmill of hallways, chairs, beds and 'follow me's'...

Day 381 - 'one' JUST 'one'

new talent that's what I have...I can burp and hiccup at the same time.  Yep, sucking it in and burping it out takes technique right? Wouldn't you say I'm talented? Perhaps I should go on the Canada's got talent show! LOL

Last couple days have been very quiet as you can tell by my start to this blog.  I'm talking about burping and hiccuping that's really sad but on the other hand really good.  Boring is OK with me...