Day 229 - 'one' confused brain

Yep that's what I had yesterday.  I mixed up my pills and now Ray is putting them out for me, that's just sad.  I need to step up my organizational skills to keep me on track that's for sure...

Day 228 - ''one' more day

of pills, pills, pills. Well the nausea is taking ahold again.  The first night was pretty yucky.  We even pulled out the barf bucket for me.  Poor Dudley he was all cuddly with me cause he knew I wasn't feeling well and then when the bucket materialized he wanted nothing to do with me, he paced the house for 2 hours ...

Day 226 - 'one' smart nurse



Getting my treatment - 3 1/2 hours of sitting.
Not so scary eh?



Yep I had one of those at treatment today.  You see for the last few times I've been gett'n a quadruple dose of Atropine to stop my tummy being upset...ok I'll say it straight, diarrhea. I get the first shot automatically before the I.V. starts and then the next shot after I get symptoms by running to the bathroom a couple times...

Day 225 - 'one' chocolate a day

woohoo! Yep the Dr. told me today that I should have one chocolate a day to feed my brain the sugar it needs.  Well I admit she didn't exactly say that but that's what I want to do. 

We were talking about all the gimmicks there are out there on the market to 'cure' cancer.  Again, I LOVE my oncologist...

Day 223 - 'one' more change

Camper girl...and her doggie.
We're making plans for camping in 2011 woohoo!

Yep, I'm making another major change.  This one is by choice not by force.  After talking about the horrific accident in Coquitlam last night, Ray and I discussed me giving up driving while I was in chemo.  I have found with this last session my chemo brain is getting worse.  I sometimes have a hard time getting words out and completing thoughts and sentences.  Every once and awhile I'm finding I get a little off balance...

Day 221 - 'one' slow motion day

It's been a selfish day. I spent my morning in a routine that concentrates on 'me'.  I spent my afternoon looking for new recipes for me and then there was the all exciting nap.  ahhhh, so tired of only think'n of me.

So I made Ray some white baking powder biscuits tonight...

Day 220 - 'one' wonderful life

All is good in 'Vicki' land ;-).  Got to see some of my hubbies family tonight, they are the BEST! So caring and easy going, it's great we all get along so well.

I spent the day putting major work into my project.  There is no way I could have gotten this part done with my hubbies muscles...

Day 219 - 'one' hammer and nail



My yard is coming along...



Yep...there is a car in there!

It was a glorious day in the Lower Mainland.  Sun, sun, sun and the warmth of 5 degrees. It gave me a chance to get out and work on my project while Ray did some moving of stuff in the garage...

Day 218 - 'one' push for the tush

That's the name of the Colin Cancer Canada's walk coming on June 5th this year at Jericho Beach.  I checked the calender and the date works great for my chemo schedule, it's on the weekend before my session.  Woohoo and the old man is off as well, double woohoo!

Day 217 - 'one' off switch please

I wish I had a 'off' switch...one for my ever crazy brain.  Good grief will it ever end? The continuous questioning of whether I'm doing the right stuff, how can I make my life better and I just can seem to get much done in a day. 

These are the same questions I asked myself when I was 20 and now I'm 50 something...

Day 216 - 'one' dash can mean so much

Yep just a dash. 

I went to a friends funeral today it was harder than I expected.  Sometimes no matter how much I want to 'suck it up' things hit closer to home than I thought they would.  It was a touching service and she will be missed.  One thing I especially remember was a poem that was read.  This I shall keep handy when I question the purpose of my day and I hope it hits home for you as well.

Day 215 - 'one' less pill

no actually '2' less pills a day.  I'm trying to take away those extra two pills that I started taking this round.  When I was talking to Ray about doing it, he suggested that maybe I only need the two extra nausea pills in the first week...

Day 214 - 'one' way or another

ahhh so which way do you go? That is what was on my brain last night.  Each day seems filled with much to do but am I doing what needs to be done? Tests tell me yes, my body tells me yes but yep its the brain that's in constant struggle with the thoughts of am I missing something?  Something that will turn this all around quickly...

Day 213 - "one' back on track

I made healthy spring rolls...so yummy with peanut sauce.

Yep, we are off and running! Between all the wonderful notes and packages I received in the mail and visits from my kiddo's I feel like nothing can stop me now! The brain is filled with things to do and look forward to.  I have a couple weeks before the cycle starts again so body cooperate...

Day 211 part two - 'one' BIG kleenex!

I don't know how to say thank you...as I sit here listening to a cd of lavender music, wearing a special green top, a blinking froggy, treasured books, and so much more with tears running down my cheek words escape me...

Day 211 - 'one' sunny day

It's the masked 'Red Robed' old lady!
Watch out she may show up for Valentine's day!

Hey there dudes and dudettes...I'm on my way back, woohoo.  Yep yesterday was my day of endless napping and it was sooooo exciting.  As usual I am NOT impressed when my body gets to rule my day...not impressed at all!

My routine is getting carved in stone.  Each day after chemo means a certain thing will happen to my body.  Day 5 is my nap day, at least that's the way it seems.  The crazy thing is when you are awake you don't even feel like reading, watching TV or anything for that matter...

Day 209 - 'one' year ago

Well it's been that long since the true first day of my journey.  Day 209 marks the days since diagnosis but today marks a year since my body started to show the true signs of something being not quite right. The thoughts of only have the flu is a distant memory of what was truly going to reveal itself. 

Day 208 - 'one' more pill

I miss my boler camping days...soon, soon!

can make a big difference. As I mentioned before I am starting to take more of my nausea pills to help me and it really seems to be helping.  woohoo.  Today is my last day for taking the steroids so that is going to put my energy level up some more.  Mornings are when I have the most energy.  Ray and I are so opposite...

Day 206 - 'one' cold, cold shower





Yep...still got some hair and look
my double chin is returning!





Well, I've upped my nausea pills today hoping it will help.  Now I'm up to 14 pills a day, woohoo. I hate tak'n pills!

I've also added another thing to my routine, like I need more.  I've researched the effects of shocking your body with VERY cold water like polar bear swimmers...

Day 205 - 'one' thought or more

Well can you imagine I don't have one today! LOL

It's been a long day.  Chemo was at 8:15 am this morning so I got up at 6am.  Which isn't that early normally but for some reason it seemed so early.  After doing a fast forward version of my morning routine of journalling, smoothie, breakfast, tai chi etc, etc...

Day 204 - 'one' sigh of relief

everything's a work in progress...just like me!

It's been one of those days.  A day when your mind gets a-going about the possibilities. It's funny how tests work.  You are excited to finally get them done, then at first you're eagerly awaiting the results...

Day 202 - Which 'one' are you?

I was doing some reading this AM and began to think about how much the body controls the brain and the brain controls the body.  When your body doesn't feel well it messes with the thoughts in your brain and when your brain is thinking messy thoughts your body responds to not feel well either.