Day 440 - 'one' more week

My autumn front porch.

I'm trying to be patient really I am.  Letting my body recover from the last type of chemo recipe is taking longer than I want it to.  Silly me figured out that within a week I would be back to normal.  I mean really? My body has been in endated with all sorts of chemicals over the past year and I think in one week it will all be gone and I will have my brain and body working at 100%...boy talk about having your head in the clouds! 

Sometimes having my head in the clouds is a good thing.  Too much reality can make me grumpy for sure.  My in-house dr...

Day 437 - 'one' day left

Yep that's what I'm giving myself.  One more day.  One more day not to think about how sick I am, one more day not to fill my body with every nutrient I can, one more day not to research all the natural remedies that are coming down the coo coo network! ;-)

My journey changes on Tuesday.  I will start swallowing my wonderful green juice once if not twice a day.  I will make a smoothie in the morning that is so full of 'good' stuff that my energy level will go through the roof...

Day 435 - 'one' roller coaster ride awaits

My morning tea hangout.  I especially like the rocker.
Of course no surprise, I am a granny you know.

There are many days that I just start typing this blog without even knowing what I have to say.  Today is 'one' of those days.  I feel my head getting clearer every day but to be realistic I would feel the same even if I was having my chemo treatment Monday because I'm not into the zone of being away from chemo more days than normal...

Day 434 - 'one' thin branch

would be very hard to balance yourself on.  But as lucky as I am I have a whole tree of strong, never bending, never breaking limbs that represent my family and friends.  Over the last year I have learned very quickly who is here to support me, encourage me and cheer me on.  I have also learned who can only think of themselves, use my illness to gain sympathy and those who don't even want to be around me because of the decisions I have made.

When you get sick you start to build this enormous trust and dependence in those strong branches.  You even find out that no matter how many things you ask them to do for you that they want to do more...

Day 433 - 'one' new curve in the road

Look who decided to show up...the OLD me!

is what we've found.  Our visit to my oncologist went well.  Some people wouldn't say that but we do. We were unsure how everything would go but I needed to talk to her about how I've been feeling the last few weeks and to discuss the upcoming treatment on Monday.  

One thing I knew for sure was that if I went to the upcoming treatment as scheduled that I would end up in the hospital and they love to keep you there once they get you! LOL  Staying in the hospital for awhile was not something I wanted to do, I would rather be at home...

Day 431 - 'one' getting powered up

As you noticed there has been a slight gap in my blog for the last few days but when you can't even find the energy to sit at a computer and type...let's say it sucks!  But as I said I think that each day will get better and this morning definitely is.  To wake up with almost full brain power and my body not far behind feels amazing.  I am so lucky that I actually get the chance to feel better for a few days...

Day 430 - 'one' challenge a day

And the tent comes down...

It's been a difficult week.  A week of just struggling to get up, especially the last few days. Chemo treatment started out well but after I removed my gizmo it was unfortunately all downhill from there. 

Men at work!

There have been days again where it takes everything I have to pull myself up to walk and there have been days that staying horizontal has been my only choice...