Day 350 - 'one' thing leads to another

and it's patience that seems to make it all come together and make sense.  But it takes time.  When you do something and don't understand why but look back later you get the ah-ha moments and the 'now I get it'.

My hubby gave me a kobo reader a while ago and I'm not much of a reader.  Used to love to read when I was very young but through time I've had a hard time remembering the paragraph or page I had just read...
  I could read 'how to' books no problem but fiction was soooo frustrating to me.  In the last year I am still obsessed with the 'how to' books.  Mindful living, living with C, eating healthier and on and on I could go. 

But since I've gotten the kobo reader I've put in a few fiction books and by george my brain is actually starting to pay attention and remember a few things.  But I had to get rid of a lot of clutter up there.  Just like the feeling you have when you start to declutter your house, you feel a weight is being lifted.  I've spent a lot of my life trying to forget stuff and keeping my mind cluttered with 'to do's' to make sure I don't think about certain things but it didn't work.  I would forget so much that when it came to remembering the important things like 'middle names' of my grandkids and birthdates they just wouldn't stay there.  Not remembering those things would feel like a knife in my heart. Where does this all lead me?

I started reading 'Full Catastrophe Living' by Jon Kabat-Zinn a few months ago.  It's all about the using the wisdom of your body and mind to face stress, pain, and illness.  To live in the moment and where you are right now.  And that's what I'm doing.  I still have lists to help me remember what there is to do.  I still find my mind thinking about what I want to do over the next little while.  But I don't stress about controlling it, making it what I want it to be, making it what I think it should be.  I have decluttered my brain from all those things I really can't do anything about anyways. 

I can't predict how things will be, or people will act. I can't predict if things will work out or not.  I can't predict if this is a good thing to do or not.  I just have to let it be and see how it all works out.  And it's almost magical.  One things leads to another that connects to another and there's no stress in between.  You watch as puzzles become pictures and pictures are put together as memories and moments in time.  But you just have to let it be so when it's finished it actually makes sense.  Trying to control everything is a never ending cycle that seems to have no end and no relief from stress for sure.

So let your day unfold as it will.  Enjoy the sounds that surround you and the people around you that show you they care.  Absorb it, let your heart fill will contentment and let 'one' thing lead to another.  You'll see...just how wonderful TODAY can be!

signed 'one' de-stressed purple ladybug