Day 361 - 'one' way do not enter

that's the way most people think about cancer.  They don't want it, it scares them and hearing somebody has it makes them feel sad.  If you asked me a year ago I would say the same thing.  But now not so much.  Crazy eh? 

I was think'n about all the 'ones' I've experienced over the past year, it's overwhelming.  Just the 'ones' in the last few days are amazing.  I only dropped 'one' number for my platelets, so I can get my treatment.  'one' great trip to the island.  'one' special friends visit...
 'one' cruise with the comet club. 'one' angel coin that my hubby gave me from his metal detecting stash that says healing on the back, imagine that!  'one' more chemo session.  'one' package of charity hats delivered.  'one' major meltdown and that's just the last week. 

oh, oh...here come those Daim candies...
CHARGE!

I realized as I was outside weeding my garden today that my life is sooooo good. That I feel blessed to have this chance to make these major changes and the time to enjoy them.  If this wouldn't have happened I would still be think'n all the old thoughts and driving myself nuts.  My life feels normal.  I have energy, think about the future, my days are busy with ALL good stuff, my family is near and treating me like a princess and I didn't think I would enjoy that but ok, I admit it, I DO!  I love watching my hubby automatically doing the dishes and washing the pots.  I love that the new projects I'm working on are not all over the place they are focused and I am concentrating on keeping my healthy living a priority. 

Starting to plan Survivor camp

Even when I was writing in my journal today I just couldn't stop writing.  I can't seem to get enough time to read everything I want to read.  Enjoying reading and writing...me??? I never thought that was possible.  My life feels balanced, full, and over-the-top amazing.  But how can that be when they say I have terminal cancer, gulp.  I don't know, but it's the truth.  I don't feel that way, I think about it less and less and I spend each day to the fullest while listening to what my body needs.  And you thought I was crazy before. 

The other half of the survivor crew,
I think I'm scaring them with
 my food challenge plans!

So there it is...I'm on the 'one' way do not enter road and it has filled my life with things that I had only dreamed of.  I pulled out my dream book I made in 1992 and looked at all the pictures of my dreams.  It even had a lavender farm clipping.  All my dreams are about a relaxed life filled with my family and a home that I love.  There are only a few things in there and they don't seem to matter to me anymore. 

Please push yourself to really think about what you want your life to feel like.  Not just what it would look like but what do you want to feel when you wake up in the morning, throughout your day and how you would like to feel as you slip your tootsies in your warm and comfy bed.  Fill your life with things that make you feel the way you would like to feel.  You will find that it is not things, it is not money, it is not fame.  Think about it seriously and start tomorrow to work towards feeling good about your life. 

signed 'one' no detour for me purple ladybug