Day 363 - 'one' unexpected change

What I can't do...

I've had more than 'one' unexpected change over the past year that's for sure.  How did I react to it?  To each one it was very different because with each change there were new challenges I was faced with.  The hardest one was my ability to do as much physical work as I wanted to.  I always felt invigorated after a few hours of hard labour and I had such a feeling of accomplishment...
  It allowed me to push the boundaries of what was expected of a woman and of what I thought I could do in my brain.  The feeling of completing something that I thought I couldn't do was empowering. 

So what did I do when the pain, exhaustion and limitations of my therapy restricted me from doing something that I felt was just the start of something big...yep I moped, whined, and got very pissed off at times.  I tried to push myself through to get things done but I would pay for it for numerous days afterwards. 

How does one let go of ideas and dreams when life tells you that they are NOT possible, at least for now?  I had to go through a list in my brain about the consequences of not listening to my body and the rewards that I will receive if I found balance.  If a person does not listen to what your body is saying than you are fighting the balance in your life that you are trying so hard to achieve.  You will never find peace, happiness, and the ability to enjoy a moment if you are constantly fighting with your body to do things it's not capable of.  You're not letting your body heal. 

Yes we all need to push ourselves at times to find our limits but definitely as you get older your body talks back to you more and more as you stretch beyond its capabilities.  A little pushing is good but too much pushing may cause you to harm yourself permanently.  And yes, that even means getting enough sleep. 

What I can!

I still struggle daily with the thoughts in my head of what I would like to do today.  But I'm enjoying the planning of new projects that will push my brain and capabilities in other directions that I wasn't anticipating.  So although I have lost the 'fun' of building for awhile, I will still strive to push my mind and inner pre-concieved capabilities because that's what keeps me energized, happy and enjoying the daily challenges that I am presented with.

How do you react to unexpected change? Do you resist, get angry, protest, challenge it, stop it in its tracks, shift gears, ignore it or do you go with the flow and see where this change leads you? 

Today I believe that I accept the changes easier and look forward to seeing where it all leads me...cause really I'm not the one who's in control I'm just the passenger waiting to be shown my true path in this life.

signed 'one' ever changing purple ladybug