Day 376 - 'one' idea, two idea, three idea more

I've noticed my brain is trying to revert back to the 'old' brain.  Where I am constantly thinking about new ideas and all the things I want to do.  I really don't know if this is a good thing or bad. It's good I'm not obsessing about Cancer, it's good that I don't have the chemo brain fog, it's exciting to think of new ideas and opportunities but...
and if I'm reverting back to this type of brain activity, is it my need to feel important or busy or just old addictions trying to work themselves back into my life. 

Did the life I had before work for me and my family? Can I fit what I NEED to do now into the ideas or will I have to give up some things to do others? I think that latter is true for sure and I will NOT give up my blog, journalling, exercises, healthy eating, giving back and quality time with my family, nope it won't happen. 

I've also noticed this morning that my back is beginning to bother me again.  That concerns me a bit.  I do not want to increase the level of my current medication, no way!!! So I must look at it as a sign that I am starting to put stress back into my body and old habits are not going to do my health any good, that I know for sure.  I even caught myself the other day with my leg shaking up and down madly, the way it used to when I was under stress.  Another sign that my current over active brain activity is causing some issues.

I think it all started with going to Lavenderville the other day.  The feeling of cutting my lavender, seeing it all blooming and then I started thinking about growing more, and vegy's, and spending days up there working on it...and she's OFF!!!!

So what do I do?

For now what I will do is write down the idea in detail and just sit on it, not literally silly, no paper cuts for me there!  You know, think about it, mull it over, do I really need to do this, what will be the changes that I need to make to accomplish it, is it really important, what would happen if I didn't do it.  By doing this it will help me a think about the distorted reality of the idea.  It allows me to prioritize things in my mind and make sensible decisions.  Sounds good in theory right?  It worked for my 'giving back' idea.  I'm still working through that one and I'm always glad when a new twist comes to my idea and the whole package is looking better each day. 

So brain settle down, remember the things that are on the priority list and don't give them up.  Believe me spending time with my kids and grandkids and Ray WILL always be a priority because those moments are the most precious and where I feel the best!  What's on your brain today?  Is it worth the brain power or not?

signed 'one' idea filled purple ladybug