Day 360 - 'one' weird side effect

I want this truck...only in purple!

yep that's what this is.  Just when you think you've felt it all, a new one comes along.  So this session my legs felt like rubber the first 36 hours. Right now if you look at my calves you will see the muscles moving all over the place.  Boy talk about weird.  I'm not sure if my muscles are trying to the get the heck away from all the wonderful chemicals going through my body but they sure are trying to do something.  What do you think?

Could this be my dad's old gremlin
Yep practical for a family of 7!

Chemo treatment today was routine...
  Although another wonderful comment from a nurse.  She was reviewing my file and said this was my 5th treatment and I let her know that it was actually my 14th and I had 9 sessions with a previous protocol.  She looked at it and said 'Most people can't tolerate that stuff' - referrring to my 9 sessions - woohoo - yep I agree 'one tough chick'.  LOL 

Yes Ray...we will build this
in less than 5 years! I do believe!

I'm trying to be tough.  Some days are easier than others.  But can say that most days are great!  It makes me sad when I catch people looking at me with sorrow filled within their eyes.  I wish some days that people would just treat me like the person I used to be but then again I'm definitely not the person I was.  To be truthful I hope I never go back to the spoiled, boisterous, know-it-all I was.  I like the calm, collected and focused person I am now. 

Yep...and this too maybe

I also makes me sad when people don't know what to say to me.  There is such a quiet that exists sometimes.  I do still have lots to talk about other than Cancer...my garden, my lavender, my charity hats, my sewing, my grandkids, my cooking, my girls, my plants that I am growing, my doggie, my blog, my journaling, my exercises, my mindful living, my crocheting, our planned holidays and so much more. 

I don't think we have enough
collected to do this though.

Although Cancer takes up most of my life there is so much more to me than that.  I will always remember what the Clinic's Counsellor said to us on our first day of meditation training.  Make sure that you remind yourself every day that there is more RIGHT with you than WRONG.  So when you look at me or anyone else that has Cancer remember that.  There is so much more to me than my disease.  There has to be when you are going through this.  It's all about balance.  And you know I really don't mind if you want to talk about my Cancer too...don't be afraid to ask, I would be open and honest and tell you what I know.  I don't know everything but I can tell you my experiences and all about my journey.  Please also remember that everything you read on the internet or see on TV is not necessarily the way things are.  We've come a long way baby and having Cancer is even different from just a couple years ago with all the advances they are making daily. 

It's a 64 comet but we were
drooling over this one on our Comet
club cruise this Sunday.  Ray wants
his Comet in the garage to look
similar to this....I AGREE!

So I will get through the next few days with lots of rest, lots of laughs and a little nausea but I can look forward to when the fog lifts and I can do some yak yaking with my friends and family.  Get my garden weeded because oh boy it needs that.  Continue preparing my backyard for our new shed/barn and starting to plan Gramma & Grampa camp in late August.  Send your good vibes my way and to others around you that need that 'one' person to smile and laugh with them because we all have a story to tell and everyone is worthy of a smile.  Here's yours =O)  Well did you smile back, good vibes people, good vibes! LOL

signed 'one' muscle wiggling purple ladybug