I'm sure we've all heard the saying 'there's more than one way to skin a cat' ewwwww. But what it means to me is that there are many ways of doing one thing. When people say to you that 'You're going to beat this thing' usually it means that you will beat it by becoming cancer free. But there are many more ways to beat cancer than just a cure.
When cancer becomes part of your life or more like your life you learn very quickly that in today's world it is very common to have cancer come and go throughout your body, different kinds and at different times...
The word cure is not used at my stage of cancer. You hear terminal, you've got a fight, quality of life stories etc. But I don't look at beating cancer that way.
The word cure is not used at my stage of cancer. You hear terminal, you've got a fight, quality of life stories etc. But I don't look at beating cancer that way.
Beating cancer to me is not letting it control your life. Not letting it be the only thing that you are about. Yes it seems to take over but it has allowed me to have such a richer life than I could have ever imagined. I have dreamed for years and wondered what it would feel like to hear encouraging words in my head. I dreamt of feeling relaxed, de-stressed and not letting the opinions of others deter me from doing what I want. I wondered if it was at all possible but I just didn't know how. You read books, you watch shows, you see movies and you dream of such a life.
Well it is possible and it's getting cancer that has given it to me. The inner peace that I have always thought is possible. No there isn't a day I don't think about cancer, no there isn't a day that I don't look in the mirror and wonder why me? But I have beat it...I don't let it get me down, I don't let it give me negative thoughts, I am no longer jealous of those who don't have it, I no longer resent those that have been able to get on with their lives where mine feels like it's in slow motion sometimes, I am no longer ashamed of saying that I have cancer, what more can I say. I have beaten Cancer to the point that it doesn't scare me anymore, that it has actually become my teacher, my motivator and my friend. Crazy eh? It has shown me more in one year than I have learned in the previous 51 years. You know how much I like to do things fast forward. Thank goodness I stopped and paid attention to my teacher, my friend and my motivator.
Try not to look at those challenges that we face everyday has brick walls. Think of them as learning opportunities that will change yourself and your life for the better. Ahhhh grasshopper we have sooo much to learn!
So 'thanks' for visiting me Sir Cancer what shall you teach me tomorrow...I'm waiting! ;-) Never thought I'd say that eh?
signed 'one' student waiting to learn more purple ladybug
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